The day after arriving back in Germany
September 14, 2009
Everything seems to be unknown. What a noise is that outside, I cannot recognize it. Is there a construction? What time is it?
I went to bed around 5 pm, slept till 11 pm and was awake till around 3 am – I wanted to sleep again but I tried to organize my head. It seemed to be impossible, still drunken from my jetlag…
Is that how the story ends? My thoughts are bothering me. I guess it is morning, I can hear my parents. Aren’t they working today? …Oh, I just see, it is already 5 pm. Wow, I slept a lot. I’m confused.
Here I am again. My environment is still the same, people get fret still about the same boring and unnecessary stuff. I don’t understand that.
I feel I have lost, lost in sense of helping many innocent people. What I’m doing here? I had so much still to do there. Without saying good bye, I needed to leave for my own safety.
I know there is too much need on our earth and this incidence is an opportunity to learn and to grow. It is my way which was predetermined for me. I won’t stop doing what I’m made for. That is for sure, it’s my passion! However, I need to rest a bit from the last weeks now…
I’m happy to live and grateful for the good which comes to me. Life is a school, and every day I open my mind and my heart to discover new people and perspectives. What a joy! The past is always necessary to bring you where you are today. Never forget this.
…Now, I’ll throw my pain over board and see how it disappears.
Bye bye!
